Disney Songs & Kitchen Cleanliness

I've had a few ups and downs lately which has caused me to be less than active on my blog. I suppose blogs are for you to get out your words and thoughts and so I should have been updating all throughout this crazy time, but I felt that it would be better not to do so.  This past weekend was a good one, it had its ups and downs (Saturday up, Sunday down), but today has been a wonderful day. 

The boy is teething again, I am pretty sure..I turned him upside down (one of his favorite things) and he was wide-mouthed and excitedly laughing so I had a chance to look into his mouth and I do believe I saw the start of these two little tell tale holes that begin the teething nightmare.  I noticed these when he got his first two bottom teeth and it would appear that we are very close to this again.  I noticed last week he was feverish and snotty as all get out, but I thought he got sick from my friends at the salon.  I did keep in mind that it could be round two of teething because these are also symptoms of teething and sure enough that is what it looks like.  I am hoping that he isn't too miserable on Wednesday when we have our first baby play date!

I did manage to find a playgroup and a mommy meetup group that I thought would be a good fit for me.  I actually joined two of them, but will probably fit in more with the one group. I just want to keep my options open and do something with Bradley one to two times per week so that I can get him out and socialized with babies around his age.  I also need a support group because while my husband tries and is wonderful...he still has to work 8-11 hours a day which means I have the boy from approximately 7am to 5:30pm solo.


Today has been a great day though...I spent some much needed time working on cleaning my kitchen and listening to some of my favorite Disney tunes on Pandora.  I always loved those Disney movies and can't wait to watch them with Bradley and hopefully baby #2 also.  I am still apprehensive about my pregnancy and not sure everything is okay, but I'll be able to see the baby again and have my NT scan on March 26th, 2012 which should put me at ease.  I am definitely looking forward to being put at ease for once. I have been on an emotional roller coaster since Bradley was three months old.

Diaper Blowouts & Teething Biscuits & Vampires

My baby boy is growing by leaps and bounds each day!  All of my days are filled with joy, but they are also filled with stress at the moment because we are in the throws of teething which means we go from zero to "cranktastic" in no time flat.

Don't get me wrong I know the kid has to get teeth because he cannot exist on formula forever, but it would be nice if he were a little more predictable with his fussiness.  Last week we had some amazing sleeps; this week has been slightly different in many ways.  The other night we were up from 9pm to Midnight with a screaming infant who had both gas and sore gums-not a good combination...think pork sandwhich served in an ashtray it was that kind of combination. Something that you definitely do not want.

Sometimes it is so hard for me to believe that I have gotten right back on the baby making train so quickly, but it had to be this way, because I am not getting any younger and neither are my eggs.  Also my husband and I have struggled so much with infertility that we simply could not let it go much longer.  If it were not for the cancelled and converted cycle in late November it would have been even sooner.

I go in to the clinic again tomorrow for another blood draw and I am hoping for big numbers so that we can schedule the sonogram and see how the state of my uterus is doing.  I have been poked with needles so much in the past three months that I have lost track and I am still giving myself my nightly progesterone shot in the bottom.  It is all worth it to build my family though and all I have ever wanted was to be a wife and mom and now I get to be and I get to grow my family albeit it the hard way.

That is the other thing about infertility, once infertile always infertile you never quit worrying.  You worry that you you won't get the two pink lines, then you worry that your beta test won't be positive, then you worry that your beta won't double, that the sonogram wont show a heartbeat...yadda yadda...yadda.  And yet there are shows like Teen Mom and Pregnant at 16  where ladies that have no business having children are getting pregnant with ease and yet here I am and so many others in the state of infertility.

I cannot complain too much, I have been blessed beyond belief to get to the point I am currently and I am hoping that I will continue to be blessed and promise not to take it forgranted.